Desperate times.

Don't bother your mind
with uncomfortable facts
that will never come
might as well drown
deep down a lake of sorrow
and shame
for what you never did

where you didn't harvest
don't you dare collect
the fruit of the forbidden thoughts you had
to please your ego and your pride
why should you suffer
for what was never true ... or yours?
no, you shall suffer for what you promised
and never gave
for what you wanted
but never remembered
you will have to grieve
and mourn
the days with light
you never wanted
but anyway came
to punish you
those days with light
that hurt with disappointment
and are thoutht about through your masoquistic heart
and dishonet beliefs of the past

that should have cut deeper
for you
to let go.