No answer for myself

Now my mind wonders
In places where I had never been before
And my thoughts search for something
That has long been gone
I have today
And what is left of a promise
I don’t want to be sad
So I won’t cry
Vanished from the future
My dreams have been
But they stayed with me
So I don’t consider them my own

And everyone would ask
Why am I this dark?
I have no answer for them
As I don’t have it for myself
What I have is today
And what is left of a promise
Of someone (or something)
That has long been gone
And that my thoughts search for
In places
Where I have never been before.