Karaudia

Lacking self

2011-12-10T07:49:00.001-08:00

Dying has a different meaning

when you're choking

withing traces of your soul

Dying becomes desirable

when hope

has left your heart

Do not reach for me

I'm without my mind

Do not call on me

I'm lacking myself

just...lately

2011-12-10T07:48:00.001-08:00

a step away now

from understanding lies

beyond my imagination

and just as the road keeps getting

wider, dangerous, lustful

a laughing phantom stalking me

I find that I don't need you

but still I want your hours

of enlightening pain

there's no poetry now

that can save me

words turn bittersweet

in your lips

hands, just too far away to feel warm

still have a fierce grip on my mind

I love you, I desire you

again I call for you

just ... lately

The outcome.

2010-12-20T17:17:00.000-08:00

A beast in the mirror
words spread on the floor
bleeding from its claws
on their skin.

And I'm the beast that hides
and I'm the words that struggle
and I'm the blood that lingers
and I'm the skin that holds this masquerade.

Only after the outcome
this monster understands
that its claim
was arrogantly illogical
and its request
just another piece of reason
for words to tear apart.

The lioness

2010-09-14T10:46:00.000-07:00

Clouds of veiled dreams
and dead ideals
surrounding the shadow
or a hunting gaze.

She stares at my unexisting fear
her claws of loathe
ready to tear me apart
with their lies.

A low breath
the pace of the inevitable
a blood smile on her lips
as I open my chest
and welcome
her kill.

Maldad

2010-09-12T11:22:00.000-07:00

Mientras la envidia caminaba
en los pasillos de cierto desdeñoso corazón
acompañada de recuerdos inútiles
una nube de tormenta atravesaba el cielo
prometiendo traer consigo
más caos, más traición.

Unos ojos que se acercan
ya no son suficiente amenaza
este corazón esta de caza
preparado para morir.

Una caricia que destroza el alma
ya no bastan como deseo
este espíritu quiere estallar
en las esquirlas de pasiones destructivas.

Unas manos que aniquilan
ya no asustan, ya no espantan, ya no me estremecen
este cuerpo espera su fin
aferrado a una esperanza
que nunca llegará.

This death will not sufice

2010-09-06T11:03:00.000-07:00

Keep on bleeding me sorrows
you unsufferable dawn
taking a turn upon my sight.

Fill me with excruciating truth
for me to sing my betrayal
and my night.

Have me tied to the stake of regrets
and burn me with slow shame
for your delight.

Hear my cry, enjoy my pain
for my own death
will not sufice.

Crucify my heart.

2010-07-12T18:37:00.000-07:00

Black tears of anger
falling to the ground of your disgrace
show me now how to hate you
when my love couldn't reach
the selfish bottom of your disdain.

Crucify my heart
bury me in the land of oblivion
for I could not melt
the pity in your eyes.

Throw me back to my anguish
my lightless nightmares
is what you wanted
so don't look back.

This war is over (to you my new lost friend)

2010-07-12T18:26:00.000-07:00

It is understood
this war is over
it was lost before it started
my own hopes
placed the sharp little pebbles
in the pocket
of my heart
for it to be heavy of despair.

This war is over
enough of this wasted friendship
that took more than it gave
enough blood has been spilled
to cover the soil of my dreams
and disarm this old soul
of its demands.

This war is over
look at my empty hands
stare at my shallow face
this war is over
but a white flag
will not be shown
on my behalf.

Rain and the writer

2010-07-04T12:37:00.000-07:00

Rain was lecturing her
"don't you write any more
about sadness
she's had enough
of my crying
for you to encourage her
never again
talk about ghosts
I have sufficient shadows
to scare her
silence yourself
of rage and fear
stop feeding
on anger and desdain
for I make her blue enough"
her silent reply
"what should I write about?"
and Rain took her hand
"write about ideas
for her
to have
her revenge"

No coments (how could I ever had them?)

2010-06-29T21:11:00.000-07:00

I
Enter me
and choke me with my sins
as they became mine
and they don't get in my way.

II
A sorrow for a lullaby
some anguish for a poem
my excuses for falling
into my particular kind of hell.

III
Never looked at the shine
never got time for that
and old habits die hard
no alibi to releave me now.

IV
Vengeance my old motto
jealousy my friend
shadows my embrace
destiny my pain.

V
Kiss me my ghost
get me drunk on your breath
I'll have no coments for you
and certainly no regrets.

Apology ... to J.

2010-06-11T09:46:00.000-07:00

As black as only a dream can be
tripping down a valley of oblivion
flesh that wanders in silence
exploring the depths
of a horrifying place
called home
waiting for a certain rain
to stop
and blood holds its breath
desperate for any kind
of beginning
following a path of old whispers
that never shine
a heart may say “I’m sorry”
but how is that the end?
as usual
an apology
is not enough.

In agony I tell you my dear friend ... goodbye.

2010-06-08T17:46:00.000-07:00

No, it is not the end of my world
it is just death to my hope
drowned in the hands
of what used to be a friend
a prison for dreams
that never got to be born

just a growing distance
that came unannounced, uninvited
and wrote “the end”
in the last page of this bitter-sweet story

I’ll miss you my friend
and I’ll mourn your absence in my poems
where our love will be evergreen
I’ll sing about the sorrow of leaving you
but I’ll smile when you see me
I’ll say goodbye with a lump on my throat
and keep you within me.

Birth and death of illusion.

2010-06-07T14:40:00.000-07:00

On a field mined with the deceiving
she sighs a whispery cry
the birth of unwanted hope
that shall live during the dark
waiting to be found
to be melted, to be caught.

And in the ecstasy of desire
awaken she will be
a touch, one look
will release her from her pain.

Walking within a dream
she will sing of her long gone despair
carried in the arms of the wind
she will speak of her lust, her claim.

And at night, a coal with no shine
she will tremble with memories
awaiting the axe that will fall on her light
and death will embrace her
one last time.

Forbidden / Prohibido

2010-04-23T09:22:00.000-07:00

Drain your lips
bloody from lies
on the skin of deceit.

Bare your desire
free from disguises
to the eyes of the night.

Unleash your anguish
tied to your sorrow
in the flesh that will burn.

And melt your destiny
satisfied, sweaty and tired
with the body
forbidden to love.

Drena tus labios
sangrientos de mentiras
en la piel del engaño.

Desnuda tu deseo
libre de disfraces
a los ojos de la noche.

Libera tu angustia
atada a tu pena
en la carne que arderá.

Y funde tu destino
satisfecho, sudoroso y agotado
con el cuerpo
prohibido a amar.

To my host

2010-04-23T09:13:00.000-07:00

Chocking shadow of fate
you call at my door
with violence in your sight
promising desperation and tears
in your smile
you've come to kill.

Slow and hurtful
you spread on the ice
that once was my heart
leaving dry leaves
that in death
shall burn.

A mi huesped.

2010-04-22T15:18:00.000-07:00

Asfixiante sombra del destino
llamas a mi puerta
con violencia en tu mirada
prometes sozobra y llanto
en tu sonrisa
has venido a asesinar.

Lenta y punzante
te esparces en el hielo
que fue mi corazón
dejas hierba seca
que la muerte
quemará.

"Dear friend"

2010-03-14T17:06:00.001-07:00

Hunt your angels with your demons, if you don't they'll drive you mad,
use your words to cut the silence within, the ones that burn leaving no ashes, the smoke of pain rising through the air reminds you how dark the stars can be.
Being dead is not a sacrifice, it doesn't make you suffer, there's no poing in screaming now that your sorrow is finally your own.
So drown your future in your memories, slay your hopes in the battle of your nevers and have your laughter be murdered by your fear.
Live like a corpse, you wanted that, didn't you? So, there you go ... enjoy.

Levántate! Levántate del cielo!

2010-03-03T05:54:00.000-08:00

Ser egoísta contigo mismo
mira lo que te ha traído
otro lugar lleno de la dicha
que juraste dejar atrás.

Y ahora te sientes solo
como ya sabes estar
la esencia que llevas esta noche
no derritió tu oscuro corazón.

Lo que tienes ahora es tu voz
y recuerdos del infierno
asi que grita sin sonido
y tu maldición te llevará.

Entonces levántate! levántate del cielo
libérate de tu sonrisa y sigue tu camino
olvídate de lo que puede mejorar
y aférrate a tu aliento final.

Arise! Arise from heaven!

2010-03-03T05:50:00.001-08:00

Being selfish with yourself
look what you have got
another place filled with the joy
you swore to leave behind.

And now you feel alone
but you've felt that way before
as the scent you bear tonight
couldn't melt your blackish heart.

What you have now is your voice
and remembrances of hell
then scream without a noise
and your curse will take you there.

So arise! arise from heaven!
be free of your smile and walk ahead
forget that it might be better
and embrace your final breath.

The death of this embrace.

2010-02-21T16:21:00.001-08:00

A valley covered in snow
reveals the skin of the unknown
a rose bent to the ground
wounds this flesh and makes it shout.

And how would you not hurt
over this forfeited love?
that stings with mghty horror
and heals with slow regrets.

So linger on the ice
be thankful for the thorn
enjoy this precious moment
of foolish stolen hope.

Collect the shreds of anger
release your wildest fears
and keep inside your memory
the death of this embrace.

Campo de batalla.

2010-02-13T15:46:00.000-08:00

Mi médula grita de ira
y mis huesos
destrozados en una compulsión violenta
le aúllan a una luz irreal, fantasmal

... el miedo me ha vuelto a tragar

Carne rota en cenizas
y sangre vomitando mentiras
hablan de una cierta pena
que siempre me hizo llorar
con placer, con dicha
con el éxtasis del horror
hago luto

no derrotada, pero enamorada de la guerra
estoy.

Battleground.

2010-02-13T15:23:00.001-08:00

My spine screams of rage
and my bones
shattered in a violent compulsion
howl at a gosthly surreal light

...fear has swallowed me again

Flesh torn into ashes
and blood vomiting lies
talk about a certain sorrow
that always made me cry
with pleasure, with joy
with the ecstasy of horror
I mourn

not defeated, but in love with the war
I am.

Miedo.

2010-02-07T08:56:00.000-08:00

Caminas
por un pasadizo insano
donde las lágrimas del cielo
azotan viejas dudas
que no dejan descansar.

Agotada
te levantas aún siendo ceniza
efímero polvo al que el viento
no deja nunca avanzar.

Y te desgastas
en un día iluminado por destellos inútiles
que nunca quisiste tener
amarrándote a las sombras
y dejándote caer.

Vencida
no por el odio
no por la ira
no por la angustia
sino por el miedo
a la inminente derrota
que ha venido a destrozar.

Érase una historia...

2010-01-23T20:55:00.000-08:00

Érase una palabra
que se volvió imagen
érase un olvido
que se volvió imposible

érase una culpa
que perdió toda vergüenza
érase un suplicio
que dio paso a la pasión

érase yo cuerda
y la maldad tocó mi puerta
vestida de inocencia
para hacerme enloquecer

érase yo a oscuras
y érase tu cegándome
y érase esta historia
que más nadie puede ver.

Desire's a bitch.

2010-01-22T20:24:00.001-08:00

As I feel
warm, frustrated, angry
disapointed later ecstatic
unfocused then restless
fearless and freakish
I sense the soft veil
of eyes that caress
like an unwelcome memory
a distant crimsom fire
of what is denied to me
enjoying borrowed lips
flowing on a coward skin
afraid from desire
without letting it go

As I feel
warm, frustrated, unsatisfied
I think of you.

La pared vencida.

2010-01-09T22:25:00.000-08:00

Alli estaba
la pared a la que la luz no amparaba
a la que ningun dulce viento acariciaba
la que no sostenía nada
sino su propia vacuedad
aqui estaba la sombra
que abrazaba la estaca en la que ardia
lanzando lenguas mudas
gemidos jamás escuchados

alli estaba yo

alli estaba
la marcha de guerra que ensordecía con su belleza
la amenaza que seducía con cortantes promesas
el reflejo cegador que nublaba la cordura
el caliz lleno de bálsamo que al curar quemaba
haciendo aullar de satisfacción

alli estabas tu

el espejismo que alumbro mi pared
para luego desaparecer.

Pensamiento

2009-11-23T09:25:00.000-08:00

La luz
golpeando el insondable precipicio
refleja sombras mas densas y asfixantes
que la misma noche

velos que vomitan palabras siniestras, hirientes
pero ciertas

hechos absurdos se revuelcan en la cama
peleando, amándose
sin saber como darse tregua
como salir del laberinto

...así pienso en ti.

Desperate times.

2009-11-19T05:45:00.000-08:00

Don't bother your mind
with uncomfortable facts
that will never come
might as well drown
deep down a lake of sorrow
and shame
for what you never did

where you didn't harvest
don't you dare collect
the fruit of the forbidden thoughts you had
to please your ego and your pride
why should you suffer
for what was never true ... or yours?
no, you shall suffer for what you promised
and never gave
for what you wanted
but never remembered
you will have to grieve
and mourn
the days with light
you never wanted
but anyway came
to punish you
those days with light
that hurt with disappointment
and are thoutht about through your masoquistic heart
and dishonet beliefs of the past

that should have cut deeper
for you
to let go.

Canto a la ira

2009-11-19T05:30:00.000-08:00

En vela la ira
se despoja de sus motivos,
trata de razonarse,
inventa excusas mediocres
y se aferra
a su desgastado cauce
al fragor que languidece
bajo su mirada.

Desnuda sus huesos
de aquel fuego sordo que la ha hecho gemir
y grita ante su ausencia.

Calla la ira
y su silencio agrede
se oculta en las aguas viscosas y oscuras del mundo
aguarda su oportunidad para acechar.

Shhhhhhhhhhh
Duerme la ira
habitando en corazones mudos
escondiéndose en lápices cobardes
esperando matar.

Writing from a broken heart

2009-11-18T05:47:00.000-08:00

The dark flashes of your soul
surrender to mine
but only while Prometheus burns me
in his ferocious sight
and I surrender to you as well
going deep in the long abyss
of the memories we will never have.

Your hands as cold as winter
go through my mind already old
how can I let this grow apart?
when I haven’t felt suicidal yet?

And I love every sound of yours
and I long for your empty embrace
and I hold you in my every thought
as we get further away.

To you who I never met
I gave my love when not distressed
to you who I shall never meet
I give my wish of you with me
I’ll rise my glass for you, for us
and I’ll just smile at your fair ghost.

To my dead mother

2009-10-28T11:19:00.000-07:00

Tears flowing across the rough valley of despair
remind me of your shadow
ripping memories from my mind
the forest seems even further away
far enough so its veil
cannot cover what remains of this agony
so it's left in the dark, what we used to have
and the pictures you took from me
now look like fantasies, like ideals
they don't belong to me now
they're stuck in the past
as I am
fighting to look back in pain
trying to say goodbye
to a ghost.

La piraña

2009-10-23T05:16:00.000-07:00

La piraña danza
en el vientre vacío, angustiado, sordo
y muerde, desgarra, destroza,
la carne se retuerce
parece disfrutar de su agonía,
el nervio salta, grita,
pero no expulsa al animal
aparentemente enloqueció
dejo irse en sus memorias
buscando lo que no se le ha perdido
lo que la ira ya se llevó

la violencia daña, el corazón se agita, la voluntad protesta

... y nadie hace nada.

Volviendo del sueño / Coming back from the dream

2009-10-23T05:12:00.000-07:00

Inhala
dejalo ir
sacúdelo de los poros
atornillalo a lo volátil
y que se largue
atorméntate este instante
y vuelve a respirar
este sueño
ya eres tu.

Inhale
let it go
shake it of your pores
nail it to the windy
and be gone with it
torment yourself this moment
and breathe again
this dream
is now you.

A winter to remember / Un invierno para recordar

2009-10-23T05:04:00.000-07:00

How can this winter fade away
when it is my heart the one
blowing the mist of deceit
and pouring the rain
of uncertainty?

Deams made from empty arms
and wishes from hopeful eyes
bid you welcome
to the land of disgrace
and aprehended passions
that should have never been.

And so a kiss becomes
and unfulfilled reality
to those whose past is haunted

... a winter to remember.

Como ahuyentar este invierno
siendo mi corazón el que propaga
la neblina de la decepción
y trae la lluvia de la duda?

Sueños hechos de brazos vacíos
y deseos de ojos que anhelan
te saludan
en la tierra de desgracia
y pasiones arrestadas
que nunca debieron ser.

Y un beso se torna
en una realidad insatisfecha
para aquellos con el pasado maldito

... un invierno para recordar.

And you again.

2008-10-28T06:30:00.000-07:00

When I used to dream
I dreamt of a dark abyss
and now that my dreams are gone
do I feel relieved? or left alone?

My daylight cannot give me
what I've long seeked for
and in the middle of the riddle
I've been left upon the dawn.

I've searched among the freedoms
that long ago I cared about
for that sweet sense of belonging
people need along their path.

So my soul's broke into pieces?
So my body's tired of the fight?
So my aches are my executioners?
all looses meaning in your sight.

You shall see myself renewed
from the pain I shall arise
you have given me new hope
a new dream to walk on by.

With you

2008-10-28T06:23:00.000-07:00

As the daylight breaks into this glass
the warmth of your lips falls down on my heart
he acking for you belongs to the past
of mind, and rain, and ghosts, and masks.

You're going down a road
that you can't go back now
so behold! because my love
will keep you by my side.

And when I weep you shall stay
and when you fall I shall pray
I'll be yours, you'll be mine
and our stars we shall enlight.

I'll embrace the dark dark night
now with you inside my mind
and our faith will trully mend
every second, every step.

it is always about someone

2008-10-21T15:51:00.000-07:00

and yet again
the craters that my tear rivers left
do not feel as real
as this fear
of going on without myself

who knows if it's about someone?
a friend told me it is always that way
but I do not dare believe it
'cause who would I be then?

so what is left for me?
despair? hope? anger? joy?
when that someone is on the horizon
untouchable, cold
like a shadow writing upon my soul

it is always about someone
but all I want to do
is let go.

My language towards you. To you, W.

2008-10-05T06:07:00.000-07:00

My grammar is fading
my vocabulary not flowing
I'm around you!

My syntax just left me
and my phonology is playing
its dirty tricks on me
I'm with you!

The psycholinguistics of my soul
are heading to your heart
seeking comfort, peace, love
the ones I never had.

And my language is naming yu
my words already love you
my thoughts are already yours
I'm with you!

I'm with you
my language is yours
and now this wild world
is merrier for you!

A mad woman

2008-05-03T12:25:00.000-07:00

A mad woman is writing nonsense
like bird that forgot how to fly
but is twisting around
smashing into pieces
what it had as a hope.

This mad woman doesn’t care
about what life has for her
she just keeps on waiting
for her turn to be free.

A mad woman is searching
in never-ending fields of joy
the flower
that will never be hers.

This mad woman is reading
what seems to be a poem
praying for the open arms
that she never gave.

And I’m that mad woman
that doesn’t know about north or south
and beyond the mountains
seeks a new end.

Once again.

2008-05-03T12:22:00.000-07:00

How do you come back
from disappointment?
how do you frighten away
the phantoms of your fear?
how can you live
after your heart is broken
again, and again, and again?

My freedom has been taken away
my illusions have flown far away
and all I that have left
is this pain and my regret.

And once again I lost my faith
and once again I mourn the days
when love called itself my friend
and once again it fell from grace.

How do you come back
when hell is all you got?

A form of good bye.

2008-04-07T14:05:00.000-07:00

Step down from it
so the pain doesn't reach you
I have surrender my fear
so you can't reach my arms.

You've been there, haven't you
between the mirror
and yourself
but now it is time
to let go.

And if my voice shall be enough
I will shout away
the ghost
for me to be with you
all that I need is this.

So step down ...
from my heart.

For no reason at all... (to my someone special)

2008-04-02T13:05:00.000-07:00

I miss your smile
even though it is not mine
but I still wonder
if you know
where I am, where I stand

I watch you from a distance
too far, so far, so cold
where you cannot hear me calling
where my desperate heart
doesn’t reach out for yours

Too dark are my nights again
and I love them too
but I have to wonder
if would you turn
and give me your smile again?
would you light up
my soul again?

I miss your smile
and somehow I miss you too
would you turn around
think of me
and save me again?

No answer for myself

2008-04-02T13:04:00.000-07:00

Now my mind wonders
In places where I had never been before
And my thoughts search for something
That has long been gone
I have today
And what is left of a promise
I don’t want to be sad
So I won’t cry
Vanished from the future
My dreams have been
But they stayed with me
So I don’t consider them my own

And everyone would ask
Why am I this dark?
I have no answer for them
As I don’t have it for myself
What I have is today
And what is left of a promise
Of someone (or something)
That has long been gone
And that my thoughts search for
In places
Where I have never been before.

I'll write to you ... (to N)

2008-03-17T15:31:00.000-07:00

I'll write you a poem
full of desperation
for you to notice
how much I miss you.

I'll write you a funny letter
so you can remember me
with a smile.

I'll write you a song
from my hopeless dreams
for me to show you
the way I feel.

I'll write you a novel
to tell our story to the world
I'll write you a simple note
to remind myself I'm just human
and that my heart beats stronger for you.

I'll write you anything
for you to keep me in you memory
and maybe someday
win a space in you heart
(as you have in mine).

On the street.

2008-02-18T15:00:00.000-08:00

Walking, smiling
just going around a place
that somehow seems new to me.

I walk, I smile, I actually don't know why
is there maybe a happy thought in my mind?
or am I just fading so much
that I forgot how to look sad again?

Nevermind, people random care
and I lost the imaginary pencil
that I used to draw smiles with
so I look, and I see cloudy faces
but ahead that might be changed.

So keep on walking
(my friend NJ's advice)
and you might get somewhere
where the sun of your smile
can open new windows
from the street
to the world.

No title (yet)

2008-02-04T15:28:00.000-08:00

the depths of your soul
light in the sky
and you're alone with me
how did we grow so apart?
why did we let it all die?
and now we're just two lost loves
that forgot how warm they were before.

I won't say that I don't miss you
that would deny the shine in my eyes
but this story has to end
before the end caughts us
in a neverending spiral
that would lead us out of the way

so would your kill it all?
would you give your back to us?
can't you see that I can't?
or would you hang on to the fantasy
that we created not too long ago
and keep dreaming
with a desirable end?

you're the one that would give a name
to this story,
so tell me
what's it going to be?

A very obvious and literal message.

2007-11-21T04:55:00.000-08:00

Would you save me?
Would you be interested?
Would you deliver me?
(as Sarah Brightman would say?
what I'm saying is ...
would you love me?

This burden is too heavy
not being with you
could we live our fantasy
through a story?
one of those
that we could write
and keep our love alive
until our desire lets us?

Can we store our wishes in words?
Until they can become facts?
Can we dream of our future
and let ourselves be true to it?

Would you give me an answer soon?

New Hopes

2007-11-06T05:10:00.000-08:00

I opened my eyes
and looked into yours
I watched your soul
and it made me calm.

Your words touch my heart
my frozen, tormented one
come with me, let's go away
where we can live our love, our lives.

You give me peace
you make me cry
those tears of joy
that melt y life.

You're in my sight
you're in my mind
let's go away
love me tonight.

05/11/2007.

Rescuing myself

2007-10-30T07:18:00.000-07:00

My faith is wondering away
my strenght is leaving me
my dreams are fading in my mind
and my love
has just forgotten
that it was suppoused
to heal my wounds.

My pain erased the way
where I was forgiving the world
for giving me my ghosts
the shadows of my past.

The path under my feet
has opened before my eyes
and swallowed my ideals
leaving me in the dark.

But my heart has betrayed me
foolish heart, naive with hope
do you want to rescue me?
are you going to risk yourself
daring me to rescue myself?

05/09/2007.

The day I became wind

2007-10-30T07:12:00.000-07:00

I took the wind in my hands
as he begged me in a whisper
"love me, love me
I've been everywhere
and I'm tired
tired of my freedom
tired of my loneliness
tired of belonging nowhere"

Silly breeze
don't you know
you belong to the world?
don't you know
that you belong to me somehow?

Your strenght was not able
to lift my wings
but it calmed my raging blood
and gave me new reasons
to move on.

I do love you, and this I say to you
you want to belong somewhere
and I don't
you want to stay somewhere
and I don't
so blow on me until my atoms flow
and take me away
you shall take my place
and I'll go somewhere else
far away
from this ghostly pain.

30/09/2007.

You in the city (or through it)

2007-10-30T07:08:00.000-07:00

The raindrops falling
on this strange street
reminds me of your kiss
flowing still on my skin.

The lights glowing far away
so distant from my night
complain about this emptiness
that grows before my sight.

Leave now so I can start
remembering you.

15/08/2007

Today

2007-10-10T14:25:00.000-07:00

Rainy day, small dropes
I'm siting here, without my hope
I'm not waiting for you to come
I just want this rain to stop
these sharp, hurting raindrops
are going deep in my heart
I want it to stop
but ...
what would be left
when you're gone?

Not my own

2007-10-09T12:06:00.000-07:00

This is not my place
but I made it my own
and no one
can take away now
my eternal companion ...
the blood letters
that come out
of my soul.